mooBlog 11-9-2010: Trimming the Fat

I guess if you've read my last few blogs, plus my other visual blog, you'd now know that I've been having a few relationship problems. After only a short amount of time, I've fallen hard for my girl. She knows it, and that's where the problem arises. I've exploded in terms of emotions. Alas, it's now the crossroads for this chap.

Do I fight, even though it's more likely to push her away indefinitely? It's out of my hands anyway. I've got no option but to allow her to have space. If only I wasn't so attached to her. If only I'd played this one cool, then maybe, just maybe, I'd have had more of a chance at success.

What would I do if after this 'break,' she doesn't want me? I've not considered it, but it's a definite possibility. The thought that someone else could make her happy makes me feel inadequate, yet I'd prefer her to be happy, so I've got to let her figure it out.

Perhaps this is some form of karma, making up for the positive things that had come out of this. Either way, I feel a bit empty, knowing that after the next time, I may never see her again. I can't believe that loving someone could push them away. I hope I'm not right, but I can only think of the worst-case scenario. These WCSs have governed my mind for so long. I guess I need to stop thinking that way. It only leads to asking for choices and presenting ultimatums.

Fuck, it's going to hurt, this break, but she's trimming the fat from her already overloaded life, and I've just got to cop this one sweet.

I'll let you know how it works out.